I’m remarrying my abusive, addicted, cheating ex-husband again because he said if I marry him one more time he’ll really change this time.
We’ve been married to each other several times and each time I had faith and hope that things would change, but they never did and I was left broken and defeated. This time it’s going to be different because he promised he will change just as soon as we’re married, again.
I know he’s really trying to change and he wants to change. It’s not his fault that things haven’t changed before. Change is hard and he has to work with and please a lot of other people. I have to be patient and reasonable and cooperate and then change can come. He says he wants to change and I think he will this time.
It’s just that right now he has to keep selling that crack because he needs the money. His image is really important and it takes a lot of money to create an image flashy enough to facilitate change. That’s why I’ve been making the payments on his BMW. But that flashy image will help him get a regular job then he’ll take over those payments just as soon as he can after we get married, again.
It’s going to be a whole lot better when we’re married again. He’ll start having family meetings. Even the BIG crack dealers will have a chair at our family meetings so we can all negotiate and work together. We don’t have enough chairs for everyone because those chairs cost a lot of money. I won’t get a chair but, unless it’s one of the super-secret kind of family meetings, I get to watch.
See, the BIG crack dealers have been controlling everything and charging so much money for their crack that nobody can even make a living. But, they’re going to be so happy to have a chair at our family meetings that I’m sure they will start playing fair. That’s what my ex says, anyway. They’ll start playing fair after we get married, again and he starts having those meetings.
There have been other times when my ex said he was going to change. When he said he was going to change before, I guess he didn’t really mean it like he does this time. Those other times, after we got married, things got worse, and when I reminded him about his promise to change, he gave me a black eye, and once he knocked out a tooth. That was my fault and it was for my own good because I shouldn’t have reminded him of his promises. I know he is trying and all but he just wants everybody to get along and he has years and years of experience at it. I haven’t gotten that tooth fixed yet because I can’t afford it. When the crack dealers start playing fair I’ll have the money to get my tooth fixed; after we’re married again and everything changes.
My ex likes to get in bed with those BIG crack dealers and that makes me mad as hell. He was cheating on me while I was paying for his BMW! He said it’s part of the compromising we have to do and he needs their money and that BMW for his Image. I guess I’m selfish because that’s a compromise I don’t want to make. I have faith that this time when we get married, if I’m really good, all the cheating will stop.
I was seeing another guy for a while and he’s a really nice guy. He also wants change but he said that I need to change too and make some sacrifices. According to him, those family meetings won’t work because the BIG crack dealers aren’t ever going to play fair. He says he won’t get in bed with the BIG crack dealers and that he wants to run them right out of town! His ideas sound great but he doesn’t deal crack at all so how can he buy a flashy enough change image? All he has are ideas! Without the BIG crack money we have to take responsibility and action to make the change happen. Can we do that?
Nobody likes the crack dealers because they cause a lot of problems for people, but everybody says you have to deal crack, even though it’s bad, so you can buy some flashy image. Once you have that flashy image, you get to negotiate with the BIG crack dealers so they’ll start playing fair. I think this time it’s really going to work.
I know that other guy is right about everything. But everybody else says that I should stick with my ex because he’s the one with the image that he got from the BIG crack dealer’s money. The other guy’s ideas seem right but it’s risky and, after all, I know my ex and I know what he’s like. Except, he promised that things will be different this time, after we are married again.
They cry out for leaders who aren’t paid protectors of special interest groups yet they continue to elect leaders who are paid protectors of special interest groups and, all the while, they expect a different result for repeating their unfortunate and misguided choices.